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Sometimes I hear a click in my brain when I walk
not just hear it, I feel it, a click click ticking,
like step click step click step click tick tick tick
like there is a bomb in my brain.

Like something inside me
is counting down to an explosion.
I clench my jaw I tip my head--
only temporary relief.
I have not click
put out the fuse
click
just silenced it
click
temporarily.
Click click 'till I sit
then silence
then stand and walk and click!
I cannot run away from this.

I only hear it when I walk click
take a step click tick
like a dripping drain, leaking faucet,
drip drip drip
until my brain (click click)
weeps and swells and cracks open like a smile,
all jagged skull-bits
and a blinking beeping
click click still ticking down.

I hear it click
at the apex of every step
sometimes click
when I walk click
always outside tick tick.
It's been happening click
more often click.
I used click tick
to be able to forget about it
for years at a time
but now it's click
almost always with me tick
every time I step outside click
like a habit
I don't recall picking up.

I click click
I don't just hear it I feel it click click tick inside me,
feels like a sound,
feels like record skip
click click
it doesn't hurt click
no pain but fear.

Like a tongue clucking click
my clicking cranium
shows me hollow inside.
I cannot click
retreat to gray-matter fortress of solitude
it click
follows me wherever I go
click whenever I walk click tick
no matter how hard I cover my ears and moan
click click click tick
the next step click.
The air under my shoe click
laughs at me tick
there is a bomb inside my brain
and knowing me click
I must assume it's click a dirty one
tick tick
every step click
every foot click
every time click...
maybe you should all stand back.
Click tick.
Come at me in click
biohazard suits tick whiter than shame click
come at me click
with your Geiger counters
click click click
we have lots in click click common.